9. Jesus falls for the third time
adore you, O Christ, and we bless you,
because by your holy cross you have redeemed the world.
Jesus answered them, ‘The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. Very truly, I tell you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains just a single grain; but if it dies, it bears much fruit. Those who love their life lose it, and those who hate their life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me, and where I am, there will my servant be also. Whoever serves me, the Father will honour.
After the third refusal she wants to give up. She sits alone in her room, ready to take her own life. Death is a better choice than what waits for her if she is returned.
Lord, forgive us for the times
we have given up hope
and been tempted to despair,
when it is just too difficult.
Teach us that you walk with us
even in the darkest valley.